forever/never

i absolutely hate it when people say this, but i think i’ve finally “found myself”. i’ve really changed into the person i want to be. i work hard at everything i do, i achieve goals, and i’m smart about certain decisions in my life. hell, i’ll probably blow it all by this school year, but at least i have a good start. i’m proud of who i am now. i’m not a hothead anymore. i have dependable allies in my life. my room is finally finished how i want it to be. and i can’t wait to show the world how i’ve improved my life.

i can’t wait for art club with mr. huber, sitting on the art room tables and hanging out with all of the people in my school that really GET me. the people that understand how my mind works. i can’t wait to pull up into the school parking lot in MY car that i helped pay for with my own money. i can’t wait to wear torn jeans in the autumn and hang my lanyard out of my pocket, because, yeah, i’m that cool. ;D 

i can’t wait to celebrate broc and i’s two year anniversary, and christmas, and going to joe sippers and parties and just hanging out with people in phys ed. i can’t wait to fail chemistry and meet new people and make fun of all the new freshman. i can’t wait to be a junior and GIVE people rides instead of asking for one. i can’t wait to have a new bed and ride to school in my own car that has HEAT instead of riding in ethan’s truck that i fucking froze my ASS off.

i just can’t wait.